It’s the first thing on the last thing on my mind list
The State of Nebraska, the GAL, and the courts have shown a callous disregard for the truth and an arrogant recklessness in violating the fundamental and GOD given rights of my family and I.
This, in turn, has incited fear in our protectors and caused a real concern for our safety and a need for protection from further forced trauma of emotional and psychological abuse by our own government. These unjust acts could easily be described as terroristic torture and malicious destruction of this countries humanity and familial bonds of attachment. These acts are so unimaginable that they would eat away at the souls of even the most hardened criminals and murderers, who, in truth, have more contact with their children from their jail cells than my daughter and I have been afforded from day one.
These unlawful acts have made countless parents and children alike fear those who are supposed to be there to protect us. They have induced intense anger at the system and judiciary that most of us would have never had to experience had the state truly acted in the “best interest” of anyone other than their own pockets and personal agendas. Our future is at great risk of being over run with traumatized adults, suffering from PTSD and depression and a whole host of other mental health issues if someone doesn’t stand up to the monsters that have been given the extreme power to choose to actually preserve our families or to entirely, and intentionally destroy each and every one of them. While our children pay the highest cost, Nobody is immune, no one is safe, Anyone could be next, And Eventually Everyone will suffer.
Innocent till proven guilty so the claim, But to them its all just part of the game/ Cause first it’s off to jail you go, It hasn’t been proven yet so nobody knows/ So even though there is a doubt, I have to pay to be let out/ Since it is suppose to be my right, I show up in court to try and fight/ I may win the case and be free, But who is going to repay me/ Repay me for the time that I lost, Plus fines, bail, and court cost.
My anger is entirely justified, yet it is used against me to claim that i am a danger to her. That assertion makes no sense at all considering the only reason I have any anger to begin with is because she was taken from me without justification. I am being prevented from being her mother and doing my job to protect her. They took her, then they claimed i was a safety issue to keep her from me. It is assumed that any good parent would do whatever was necessary to save their children from harm if it was being carried out by any average stranger or civilian. Yet, even with this general knowledge, when the state does the same, it is the parents who are wrong for feeling angry. They blame us for not being ¨fit¨ to raise our children, and then get upset when we do exactly what a ¨fit¨ parent would do under those circumstances….use our anger and pain to fight for our children´s safety and well being. The only difference between the state and a stranger is the authority the state has been given BY US. We must consent to be governed for them to have any power to take our children from us……….So why are we sitting here allowing them to continue to harm our babies when we are the only ones who can take that power away from them. It is us, the parents of these innocent victims that hold all the power in reality, not them. This government has a very arrogant and self serving attitude about what role they play in our lives on a day to day basis. They act as though they have been given their power by God himself and that anything they choose to say or do is justified in the ¨best interest” of these children. The reality however is far different from the imaginary world they are living in and we are allowing them to control. The reality is that, with the right knowledge, we control them. We are their rulers. We are their ¨God¨ so to speak and we are the ones who possess the unalienable right to raise our children in the manner we see fit as ¨fit¨ parents. It is a proven fact that parents naturally do what is best for their children because it is human nature to do so. It is not the norm for a parent to harm their children, but the exception. In today´s world this statement seems to be flipped and people put forth the appearance of believing that when the state is involved you did something to cause them to be there. This is the first thing that needs to change. People need to realize that these agencies are taking children for nothing more than dishes in the sink, or dirty clothes on the floor, or allegations that were false from the start made by vicious, malicious, spiteful individuals who want revenge for some thing that has nothing to do with our children. It is a case of automatic defamation of character because once they remove our kids we are labeled or judged as neglectful or abusive and treated as such, not just by the court but the world in general. If my spouse abuses me out of the blue one day, with the children any where near the incident, they will come and remove them from the care of even the victim of the assault, further traumatizing an already traumatized family. It is believed and acknowledged that a protection agency should ¨PROTECT¨ the children. Never under any circumstances should the families situation be made worse by the agency assigned to help make it better. So to all the parents and non parents out there who are under the impression that the majority of the parents in this country are unfit or abusive, think long and hard about your judgments and beliefs because if we continue to let this happen in this country and all over the world, it will not be long before your children will be next……..Think about it.…….They are coming for yours very soon, you can count on it. No one is immune or safe and when that time arrives, who will help you get justice and demand the return of your precious children if you have discounted all the ones who are fighting already. We are the ones all of you will call when the same thing happens to you. We are the parents you will turn to crying for help. WE ARE THE ONES YOU ARE GOING TO NEED!!!!y
I hate being away from you, There is so many things we just can’t do, Like rubbing one finger slowly across your forehead, Cause it’s what we did every night before bed
Waking up each morning to your beautiful face, Now i awaken to emptiness in your place. Teaching you things about life everyday, but the took my life when they took you away.
Denying me that ability to be the Mommy I should, Saying they wont give you back if i don’t learn to be good. But all the while i am already knowing, if they get their way i am going to miss all of your growing.
On January 15, 2015 at around 4:30 pm a douglas county sheriff knocked on my door. As I opened the door, the sheriff seeming surprised I had, proceeded to inform me that he was sorry but my daughter had been removed from my custody at school. He stated he wasn’t sure the reason but the summons was on its way to us, being brought by someone else. The removal was the result of an I, nvestigation which I was not even aware of occurring until that time, even though my child, my mother, and her father had already been interviewed a few days prior. I was never informed and no attempt to contact me was made per the testimony of sarah brock, the intake worker.
Based on documents attached to the summons I received, the hotline received a call alleging that I was using meth on a daily basis. Although that was the only concern raised in the call, the petition added engaging in domestic violence and untreated mental health as well. These were the reason stated for exisgent circumstances which have never been specified any further than that or made clear by any facts to support it at all. The summons signed and dated January 16, 2015 was hand to me one day before it was signed and dated. It was delivered to me on the 15, the same day my daughter was taken.The basis for this was set out in exhibit A, a document consisting entirely of heresy, lies, slander, and irrelevant “facts” that provide a false perception of danger or risk where none truly existed at all.12 days after my child was removed, I had my first appearance hearing. I denied allegations and the case was set for trial with Kyah remaining in placement pending adjudications. A pretrial hearing took place without my knowledge or her father or I present and the court waived the record of it. The pretrial was on Feb. 9. The trial was set for April 13, 2015, 4 months after my child was taken. I was adjudicated on engaging in d.v. in presence of my child and drug charges were dropped due to lack of evidence. The state admitted an IDI done on my daughter by Mary Atwood of Reliable Rock. Upon inspecting the doc post trial I discovererd 2 separate IDI’s mixed together as one with Exhibit #11 on the front page. They had 2 different phone numbers, different addresses, different letterheads, and what appear to be different signatures claimed to have been done by the same lady at the same time and day. One of them contained lots of false statements and the other one said nothing negative about me or false in any way. Neither mention any trauma occurring due to witnessing domestiv violence. No safety concerns raised either.
My Public defender left Nebraska shortly after trial ended without filing requested appeal. When I brought the IDI to the attention of my new public defender she told me I was extremely paranoid so I fired her and have been pro se since June 2015. Within the first 6 months of this case, perjury, malfeasance , slander, forgery, treason, and violations of constitutionally protected rights have continued to occur and be allowed by Judge Daniels maliciously in an attempt to conspire with state to destroy the relationship between my child and me for financial and personal benefits. They have knowingly and intentionally acted negligently with regard to our rights as well as the health and safety of both my daughter and I. juris
Everyday in this country families are ripped apart by a system that breaks its own laws, defies its own mission statements and does so with almost total immunity. In many cases, it does so with the support of judges, lawyers, and mental health professionals. A major cause of the lack of accountability on the part of parents is not knowing they have rights, what they are, or more importantly how to enforce them. As a citizen of the United States and as humans who have been guaranteed certain rights, we all need to be aware of what they are and what they mean to each individual. We need to know our rights and how they are relevant in today’s world.
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I have been through an unbelievable amount of change and suffered an endless amount of trauma over the last few years with no end in sight yet. One thing after another after another continues to plague my world and it has continued with little room to breathe in between it all. Ive had to make sense of the realizations and discoveries I have made, try to cope or deal with them to the extent possible at this point, and still be able to sort through the chaos that is yet to come, all without losing my mind or being put in jail or simply quitting. I know i have such a long way to go still but even if no one else sees it or cares, i know how much I have truly survived and i honestly believe that i even looked good doing it for the most part. I havent completely fallen apart or lost all of the screws yet and at this point, even though i feel desperation at times, hopeless and very frustrated and sad, i still can see hope and look around and be grateful for beautiful things in this often very ugly world. I am doing better than most would in my shoes. I am defenitely doing better than those people accusing me of mental instabliity and being a safety risk to my baby. I know alot of mothers and peopole in general that would be in a padded room right now singing to themselves while rocking back and forth while some nurse hands them meds in a paper cup and makes them swallow it. People love to talk shit and have their nose in my business where it has no place. The worst part is that not one of them know anything real about my life or how I live it. Not one of them could actually tell you how well im dealing with things or how in control i am or am not for that matter. Not one of them can give you a genuine reason for the claim that i am a safety risk to anyone especially my daughter. Well except maybe to them, however only for committing the crimes against us that have torn my family apart such as kidnapping my child. Even if I was to snap and let my “emotions” take over, most americans would say i was completely justified and that they would have done the same long ago. Not one of them will acknowledge the fact that my love for my kids is quite obvious and that I have more than proven myself as a fit parent who would and has gone through hell and back to protect them and be a good mommy to them. There are numerous “professional” idiots and amateuer “experts” all conspiring and aiding eachother in the destruction of what is left of my so called life. In their attempts to completely control my world and make a profit in the process, they have caused such great harm and trauma to my daughter and I that i fear we will never be able to put the pieces back the way they were again. We will be dealing with the stress and scars from these acts for years to come, but we will heal….we will survive…..we will regain the bond that has been maliciously torn apart by those claiming to be our family. We will fix the damage caused by over zealous, power hungry, greedy, government and state officials on this personal vendetta against us that has been ongoing now for a number of years. It is not a choice but a necessity. It is not a desire, but a relentless ache. It is not an option, but a demanding inevevitability. I will not allow you to be the reason i lay down and die, nor will I allow you to continue on this unconsciouable path of ill intent, wrongful acts, and intentful lies meant to tear me and my daughter apart and interfer with our bond that once was stronger, but will never fade. No matter what is done to deny us contact and come between us, our love for eachother and our bond will not be erased. It will continue to grow even when we are apart, even through all the manipulation and brainwashing and cruelty, it will only make us that much closer, that much stronger, that much more connected. They have chosen the wrong mother and child to fuck with. They have made a huge mistake in seriously underestimating my love for her and the lengths I will continue to go through to right the wrongs and get justice for all we have been forced to endure with no true justification or morality. Common sence may not be common any longer and people seem to have all but lost their minds, but I have not. Unlike what they would like everyone to believe, I am completely sane and level headed. I can think clearly, i can rationalize far better than the judge according to his orders and bias gestures. Corruption of this magnitude is bound to make any one of us a little crazy and cause even the most intelllifent people to make “bad” choices in its wake. However, they have seen no evidence, or shown no cause, for any of the claims that I am unstable or for them to be afraid of little old me. Unless of course they are frightened by jail time or being sued for every penny to their name, which i am going to do, and perhaps should scare them, probably more than it does. Cause there is no forgiveness when it comes to putting any pain or heartbreak on my child. There is no redemption for maliciously attempting to destroy a loving mother daughter relationship just for their own personal gain or financial incentive. It is not acceptable and will not be allowed to go unpunished. One way or another, I promise all those involved will pay, they will suffer consequences for their actions just as i have had to and my daughter has been forced to do though she is entirely innocent. All of them will know what its like to be thrown into the depths of hell with no promise of returning and no relief allowed to occur.
My mind cant begin to imagine not hearing the sound of her voice, or seeing her smile, or laughing at her jokes. I don´t know what I´m going to do if i have to keep being alive without her. I have just existed through this whole thing, just going through the motions and trying to stay positive and take it day by day. I know i have trauma from the events that have took place so far in my life. From the abusive relationships, to finding out my mom was the ¨crazy¨ one even though everyone said I was. I always wondered if I was the only sane one or the crazy one like they said. It still is hard for me to remind myself to trust myself sometimes instead of always doubting and thinking i was probably wrong or will be. I may not have totally dealt with my demons and my scars have only begun to show, the hardest part may still be yet to come. On my 36 birthday, I will stand in front of a Juvenile court judge and defend myself against allegations that i am a danger to my daughter made by my mother. A mother who has been hell bent on destroyed my life and taking my children since the day they were born, while I made it easy for her by being completely sure that my ¨mother¨ would never betray me. She was always suppose to be behind me and love me unconditionally. Now I know she has never loved me, she can never love me. She, as a socio-pathic narcissist, is not capable of that. It isn´t necessarily her fault but nonetheless, it has caused an extremely harmful and traumatizing experience for both me and my daughter. If my mother, who is the foster mother for her as well, is allowed to continue to keep this hold on us, there will be emotional and psychological damages to us that will never be repaired. Even the top experts on parental alienation and what is happening to us say we have an almost zero chance to gain back what is being taking from our bond and lives together and separately. I do need to talk to a counselor as does my daughter, however she is and has been being diagnosed incorrectly from the beginning and has only made an already harmful, traumatizing situation worse. We should be in therapy together as well as individually. It has been admitted by even the GAL that she knows I love my children, and it is widely accepted that the bonds of natural affection between children and their parents lead parents to act in the best interest of their kids. That is the norm not the exception. We are not the exception. I have proven I am a fit parent, the State has not proven that I am not, and my daughter is intelligent enough to know that I am not a danger to her which is why she has repeatedly asked to see me and live with me and her voice has been ignored as well as mine. The only one being listened to is the one who is destroying my family with lies and manipulation and the ¨professionals¨ are being fooled into assisting her. Perhaps this has never been something they have dealt with previously just as i had never known this could happen nor that it does happen every day in this country and this world. However, even if that is the case, which i suspect otherwise, now is the time to wake up and learn something. My family is not the only family this happens in. Most times it is happening in divorce issues however, whereas in this case it is a situation slightly different as it is my mother, her grandmother, the foster parent that is guilty of alienation and manipulation, forgery and lying to get her way and destroy the scapegoat, which is and always has been me. I am pleading to save us. My daughter and I both. I don´t want to die, but i don´t know how I will live with the pain and heartache forced upon me and my child if this is allowed to continue or if we lose each other entirely. She needs me and I need her. Her birth gave me life and now I face that life being stripped from me unjustly along with being beaten by my ex fiance, and abused by my mother and daughters father and tortured and harassed by the state. My birthday is also going to be the day of my death metaphorically unless the only person with the power to stop it has the courage and faith to do so.
Dear Adoption, You Are My Biggest Blessing and My Greatest Sorrow I have asked myself numerous times, “Why me?” Why, out of all of the people in the world, was it ME who was abandoned. Selfish as it may be, I wonder why everyday. I don’t blame you for my abandonment. It wasn’t you who […]
This countries future is being #Taken away, as thousands of our kids are being stolen everyday/ Innocent children depending on their parents, snatched with no warning to receive more monthly payments// Two loving parents deprived of their soul, Cause some stranger was allowed to take the piece that made you whole/ Seperation anxiety and PTSD infect them all, and you can’t do anything to help so you just cry curled up in a little ball/ Your suppose to protect them you tell yourself, but you cant protect them from those claiming they want to help/ Hopeless and lost, not knowing what to do, Staring out the window, knowing deep inside you have to fight cause they are counting on you.